Matt is out. Drats. I kinda like him. He's got a fantastic attitude. Haha...well, sooner or later, Diana will be out! Suddenly, I just don't like her anymore! Lol...& yepz, JPL still rules.

Woke up this morning feeling like crap. Had that dream again. Or nightmare I should put it. Him...he hasn't appeared in my dreams for some time now...why did he creep back in again? Please Sam, it's been 5 years, let it go. Well, I did. I have. But my subconscious hasn't. So sue it. Dreamt that I saw him from a distance & he didn't recognize me & walked on. I stared at him not knowing what to do, but I knew that if he walks past, something terrible would happen. I just knew that I could not ever let him pass me. So I did something drastic, I flung myself in his way. That was the worst move ever. Then he looked at me with those eyes, with an expression I couldn't fathom. Was it pity, or was it sadness? Did he pity a pathetic girl who could not let go of her memories? Or did he not feel anything at all? Was he guilt-stricken for years, knowing what he has put that girl through? Well, I suppose not. Life's unfair in so many ways. I don't know where he is now(probably in NS), or what he has been doing for the past years, or how he did for his As. See, I'll never know. Coz' he didn't give me a chance to. Fine, I accept the fact that we were never together. But we shared something. Something which can never be replaced. Those letters, those cards, those phone calls. Did they mean nothing to you? I hope you live in guilt for the rest of your life. For lying to me for ages. For a year, & then almost 2. For leading me on. For feeding me with false hopes. For being the first to break down my defenses. & then leaving me shattered to build them up myself. For turning me into who I am today. Thanks a lot. I guess I've learnt something from that. I've learnt to let go a lot easier than the past. Learnt not to cry for worthless people. Learnt that the world is not as kind as it seems. Learnt that I'm on my own. Thanks for helping me see that. I was gullible, & maybe I still am. But not so much as before. You took advantage of my vulnerability & I hope your conscience will eat you away.

See? I'm evil. Haha...

Hmmm. Yepz, went to buy a Singtel Hi card for some purpose. Lol...then walked 2 rounds & back home. By the way, saw this guy near Taka who looks like the clone of Hong. Could be his brother. Haha. Same face...but looks younger that's all. So amusing...

Large hickeys. Bleargh. Cover stick, foundation, powder. Okie, done.

Quote of the day: I think you should wear your school to shoes. (???)
Great one, Shaun! *thumbs up* Haha...

Injury count: Fingers getting slammed into a table
Source: Trina, forgetting my hand was on the armrest of her chair pushed the chair in & slammed my fingers into the table. Ooch.

CAB COUNT
Green: 8
Red: 2
Silver: 2

Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
& it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever & ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time everytime
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever & ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever & ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
Lonestar [Amazed]