Make this short:

Yesterday. Marketing assignment. Farhan's house. Fish & chips. Turbulence. Pasta. Muffin. Chateau D Arts. Stamford House. Photos. Wine. Canapes. Desmond Kon. Reaction paper. Tears. Patrick Wong. Zayed. Squirt. Darrelle. Danielle. Estella. Drunk. Justin? Burger King. Subway. Dory Shah. Skye. Phone call. Xun. Embassy.

Brain can't link them up right. Read Farhan's blog & you'll know the proper details.

Thursday, Ben kor & Mag came over & reformatted my comp to Wndows XP & I could keep my music files. Rad. Thank you so much both of you for taking the time to come down & help my screwy comp!

Still in the midst of loss. Even cutting has lost its initial purpose. I used to feel slight pain & that made me feel better. The temporary distraction was welcomed. But I don't even feel the pain now. Numbed. Really numbed. There's no point anymore. Feeling really weird. The feeling of loss comes sporadically. Laugh laugh, & then cry cry. & laugh again. Seems like I can't get a proper grasp on them. Someone put a rein on them please?

Woke up this morning & I stared out the window
& I struggled for something to say
You left in the rain without closing door
I didn't stand in your way

I miss you more than I missed you before
& where I'll find comfort God knows
Coz' you left me, just when I needed you most
You left me, just when I needed you most

Most every morning I stare out the window
& I think about where you might be
I've written you letters that I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me

I miss you more than I missed you before
& where I'll find comfort God knows
Coz' you left me, just when I needed you most
You left me, just when I needed you most

Woke up this morning and I stared out the window
& I struggled for somethin to say
You left in the rain without saying a word
I didn't stand in your way

Now I miss you more than I missed you before
& where I'll find comfort God knows
Coz' you left me, just when I needed you most
You left me, just when I needed you most
Tim McGraw [Just When I Needed You Most]