I'm trying my best to detach myself, as far off as possible. I feel like a right charlie for what happened. & I'm gonna put it all behind me. But seems like I can't.

You all think I'm selfish. Or that I'm clinging on. Maybe I am selfish. But I am most definitely, certainly, honestly not clinging on. I see no point in it.

I have my own reasons, my own reservations. How can you think that way? Try stepping into my shoes. Maybe then you'll see why.

As of now, we'll see. My mind's in a whirl now. I can't think coherently. 4 ice-creams a day can do that to you.