My mom's packing my baobei's clothes into a huge container now.

& I'm trying not to tear up. He has been with us every weekday for the past 1 year & 8 months or so. It's really heartbreaking for him to grow up & leave us.

My biggest fear is of him forgetting us. Of him hiding behind his parents when he next sees us. Of him forgetting everything we've done for him.

Packing his stuff seems so final now.

I'll probably cry tomorrow.

If only he's ours.