Hmmm.
Well, the thing is, I don't want to rush into things so soon. That doesn't mean anything negative, just that rushing into things screw up usually.
I mean, I rushed into things with many others. & they all screwed up. Coz' we just didn't know each other well enough.
Jonathan was one. I didn't know him. Just 1 week & bam. Another 2 more weeks & it was gone.
Hong. 3 weeks & bam. Another 1 more month & it was gone.
Him. 1 week & bam. Another 1 week & it was gone.
See a pattern emerging? I never really got to know them well enough. & that's why now, we can't even remain as friends.
For those whom I knew longer before we got together, like Xun & Ju, we're still extremely close friends. They're my besties in fact. I knew Xun for 2 years before we got together. Same goes for Ju. & that's why when things screwed up, they ended amiably.
I just don't want to rush. After all those shit that happened, I just need a break away from it all. Get to know each other better first instead of plunging ourselves into anything.
& I don't want to be so sceptical, but I must say I am. A little. A little weary. I don't want anything to turn out to be a 'mistake'. Because sometimes, people get their feelings confused. A passing fleeting feeling could be interpreted for something more, when sometimes it isn't. Trust me, I've been there before.
I'm just a mite doubtful. So maybe it'll take some time.
I'm feeling all messed up
I have a voice inside my head
It says down to the left
Then it says down to the right
Don't wanna bring you down
But I am really needing guidance now
What would you do within my shoes?
(Go home)
I'm going crazy
(Stay high)
I've never felt so wrong
(Go home)
I want to turn and run
We've got to find a place to go
So when you're feeling kind of mixed up
Just remember it's a mixed up world
& if you're feeling life is just too tough
Just remember you're a real tough girl
I look around my life & all I see is contradiction
& a lack of faith
Cynicism rules the day
I know it has it's place
But I am really needing guidance now
Reminding me I'm strong inside
Sophie Ellis Bextor [Mixed Up World]
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