Fuck fuck fuck. I don't really want to anymore. But I feel bad because I keep pushing it off with excuses & all. I don't know what to come up with. I've ran out of alibis. & now he tells me he pushed off his dental & admin appointments. So now what? Feel bad & go & try to see what I can do. Or just don't give no shit? Fuck fuck fuck. Or is he only using that as an excuse?